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I recently had a discussion about religion and what name do we give it. I was born Lutheran, and was given an upbringing that knew words like “heretic”, “God-fearing”, “sinner” and the sort. Pretty old school that is, go by the book, don’t add stuff, don’t take stuff away, don’t alter it as it pleases you. That kind of upbringing gave me the attitude that you can’t pick and choose inside your religion. You take it as it is or don’t take it at all – so I chose not to take it at all. I left church about 10 years ago.

I had trouble with certain things, like The tree of Knowledge between Good and Evil. First, God puts it in the Garden and tells these animal like creatures with no concept of Good and Evil not to eat of it. Because they have no concept of good and evil, they should not know anything about disobeying or obeying, either. Yet, when they fall right into the trap, God banishes them out of the Garden of Eden without giving them a second chance now that they would actually be equipped to know between good and evil. I thought he was just being UNFAIR.

Another thing I had problems with digesting ever since I was 6 years old, was that if God only lets people who believe in him and repent, in Heaven, what happens to people who never hear about him? Surely they cannot be cast out just because nobody told them? My auntie then explained to me that God will accept them if they still lived a good life doing good things without knowing. That satisfied me for some time, but then I started thinking that hey, if it’s okay for the guy who didn’t know about God to go about his life the way they FEEL is right, and without making too much of a mockery out of it, then why do we have to obay these silly rules all through out our lives that really don’t make much sense to a common man? Isn’t that UNFAIR?

The Christian God likes to put traps for people. He gives them sexuality and tells them not to use it. He gives them anger and tells them never to speak in anger. He gives them ambition, but tells them never to desire something that is not their own. He gives them pride and talent, tells them not to boast about it, but at the same time not to hide talent. (Okay, so that’s doable.)

And then what is Jesus? He’s the guy who changed the rules when people just couldn’t cope with the old stuff. Why do a God, an all-knowing power, need to change rules in the middle of the game? Didn’t he know from the start we wouldn’t cope? He should have known better. And then, what happens to those people, who lived before Jesus Christ, and lived by the old rules but couldn’t cope? Let me guess? The Hell with them! Isn’t that just UNFAIR?

Then when you read the Old Testament, you just crinch the whole way through. (Not that I ever made it the whole way through.) You wonder why God would say anything like that. He’s just an asshole! Your believing friends tell you that Jesus changed all that. What? Jesus changed God’s mind and made him more humane? Didn’t he KNOW BETTER when he wrote the Old Testament? Isn’t God supposed to be a constant, unchanging being, with all the knowledge in the world? Such beings are not being ILLOGICAL, and yet, this God was.

Then, God doesn’t like vain people, but he’s so vain himself, that if you don’t believe him, do as he tells you and worship him, he will get a temper tantrum and not let you in heaven or even send some horrible things your way to punish you and turn you back to God. The God is narcissistic!

I could deal with a concept of vengeful God, even a cruel one, but never unfair or illogical. Those two traits are a deal breaker for me. If God can’t handle being more just and logical than I am, then certainly there’s something wrong with the concept. And who told me about these rules that God has? Not God! God has never said a word about any of that stuff, not to me or anyone I know.

So I left the Church, and decided not to believe anything for a while. I don’t think I was being an atheist, but rather an agnostic. I just decided to give the whole thing a rest until it would make some sense to me. When I allowed myself to think about it again, I made one rule: Nobody would tell me what to believe if it didn’t feel right. I would not accept concepts as a whole, but would take information from within myself, not of books, no matter how holy they claimed to be. I would take answers from nobody but God himself.

God has a small voice. It’s not the booming voice that some people believe him to have. No, his voice is so tiny, soft and silent, that it is easy to ignore. We call it “conscience” or “instinct” or “gut feeling”. Unfortunately, it is the type of voice that can be manipulated, and interfered with. Like if someone tells you often enough that sex is bad, that is going to mix the signal God is sending. We can mistake other people’s messages for Gods messages. That is why you can never be quite sure that what you believe is correct, as listening to the signal without interference is quite difficult at times. What I know about God though, that he understands this, and won’t hold it against you if you get it wrong. To get it right isn’t more than solving a problem, and if you can’t solve the problem, it’s not something you should be punished for. You have been given limited resources and varied resources and not all people can be judged by the same scale. That is not to say you would be judged. Life isn’t a competition, and the reward for it is always the same; Heaven. We’ll all be sitting there side by side, Bush, Hitler, Gandhi and Mother Theresa, as equals. After we cross that barrier, we’re no longer human, but souls, pure souls, without any interference of the signal. Then we know what God is saying, without hesitation, and it would be illogical to then say: “Oh, now that you know everything and see me, I’ll send you to Hell!”

And of course, the biggest interference of them all… If you are a devout Christian, you have been warned by others that listening to people like me is dangerous. I am here just to speak on behalf of the Devil. I am here to lead you to evil. I cannot say anything to prove that wrong, but the good thing is that the True God would not punish you for listening to those warnings. He understands that not everyone will get it right. He will let you go and speak awful things about him, and understand. And when you die, he will give you a smile and a wink and go: “Oh boy, you got it wrong, didn’t you?” And then you will reply, as now you know everything, with a smile and go: “Oh God, did I ever!” and he won’t punish you for using his name in vain, even though you didn’t really use it to address him.

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A narcissist is a person who has a very frail ego. He will do a lot of weird stuff to promote the idea of his superiority over others, especially their spouse or girl friend. Now let’s imagine for a while, that (the Christian) God is a person, who enters your (God’s bride you,) life.

You are having rough time in your life, and that is usually when God appears. He comes in as your saviour, tells you that he will make everything better, because he loves you. You poor thing made a mess out of your life without me, but now I am here, to make it all better. It will be very special between us, I love you, you love me, and we forsake all others.

He does make everything better. The Sun seems to shine brighter for you and you feel so loved and special. You focus fully on your new love, and you tell everyone how happy you are, and how much in love you are with this special man. Your friends are a bit on the hesitant side, most of them don’t really believe that you are for real. They warn you a bit about the dangers of going into the relationship head over heels.

God, your man, will now tell you that you have to ignore your friends, because they are not good enough. They haven’t been touched by love like you are, they don’t know. They are not experienced enough to give you advice. You would be better off without them anyway, at least give yourself some space from them, and concentrate on US. Just ignore what they say, they don’t know what they are saying. How could they know what a special relationship we have?

God will then slowly introduce some rules into the relationship. He likes his bed made the certain way. He doesn’t like you swearing. He doesn’t like you being too slutty, dressing up too slutty, as that will arouse other men. (Yes, narcissists do that, exactly.) If you enjoy sex, it has to be with him, and with him you have to be ecstatic, it’s God Sex, woman! You have my blessing here! Moan and groan, woman, it’s me inside you! One day you buy yourself a dress you think your man will like, but he will turn away from you, and says he hates it. Too sexy. It must be that you don’t love me! You want to attract other men, you want that dirty sex that other men give you! Not the divine and pure sex we have! You whore!

He will tell you that he insists that you have to eat healthy, but buys cakes and chocolate for you. He places them in front of you and waits. When you eat some, he will tell you what an disobedient horrible person you are! He will tell you that you have to respect these people, but then manipulate them behind your back to behave in a disrespectful manner, just so that you would slip up again and you demonstrate how you don’t respect them. He takes great pleasure in trapping you. Once you have been humiliated like this, he will then insist on having an intimate moment with you, to strengthen the bond you share.

When you silently think that you want out of this relationship, he will threaten you with the hell he will put you through if you don’t comply with his rules. He will not only make your life a hell, but your childrens as well, he will make your children pay for your sins, regardless, sure, they are his children as well, but your sins will be paid by your son. There’s a reason for you to stay put! Besides, wouldn’t it be embarrassing to leave? God was so good to you to start with, and you were so silly going into the relationship telling everyone about all those wonderful things he did! How could you admit to them, that it wasn’t as good as it seemed after all? God tells you, that nobody will ever love you the way he did anyway, and you should do anything for love like that, shouldn’t you? You don’t just cast away happiness with both hands like that! You will never be happy again if you leave me, I should know, because I’m God, right?

Sure… This image of a God is the one that exists in the unedited version of the bible and old testament. But how far are we supposed to “edit” God and still think it’s the same bloke? A lot of people will say, that God is really not like that… And all wives of narcissists have said the exact same thing at some point or another. “It’s not how he is, he’s just misunderstood.”

So if you really know what God is like, what do you need a church or the Bible for? That’s what I decided long ago, nobody was going to tell me what God likes or doesn’t like, I was in as good of a position to know Gods will than anyone else. So I left the church, and I have never looked back.

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I was reading this old post about not watching the news and why it’s bad for the society if you do. Sounds kind of weird, doesn’t it? The explanation will sound weird to most of you as well, but for some of you this makes perfect sense. The vibrations you send to the universe will create more of the same. Imagine what power the vibrations of the whole country will produce in front of the news. Read the rest of this entry »

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